At my church on Sunday morning, the worship leader, as she began to lead another song, asked a question, “Don’t you just love to worship?” The first thing that came to my mind was “No!” I am not a singer. This last year I had terrible throat issues and singing still hurts my throat a little. Sometimes I even look forward to the singing being over. So does that mean that I don’t love to worship? I really love God. Is loving God and worshiping him the same thing?
I started thinking about what it means to worship. After thinking about it, I Googled it and some of the definitions for worship on merriam-webster.com were: to honor or reverence as a divine being or supernatural power; to regard with great or extravagant respect, honor, or devotion; and, to perform or take part in worship or an act of worship. TO PERFORM! I’m an actress, so of course TO PERFORM stood out to me. As a performing artist I feel my most authentic worship of God comes when I connect to the raw emotion of my characters. Through exploring these characters, their joy and pain, I understand a little more about God. We are made in His image and through this exploration of human emotion and vulnerability I find understanding.
The most difficult part about worshiping for me, is finding the opportunity. The WordPlayers provides this for me. This company allows me to draw close to God’s heart through my work on the stage, both as an actor and as a director. It also gives me the opportunity to know and grow with others who are like me. Those who feel close to God – those who worship God – through their creativity. God is certainly creative and I am thankful to Him for showing me more of his heart as I worship through my art.